Random thoughts and my lasts

So, just a little disclaimer for all of you who will be following and reading my blog posts........I"m not the best speller and will not be going back over what i wrote to correct anything, there's just no time. So if you see a misspelling, incorrect grammer, or anything else that is wrong keep it to yourself cause really at the end of the day you are reading what God is doing in my life do you really think God cares about spelling???......No He doesn't, He told me so.

I"ve already had so many "lasts". Last week at work, last time driving my car, last time seeing some of my friends, it's been weird and hard and emotional. I only have today and tomorrow to finish all of my "lasts" and then I am off for 6 months to discover alot of "new" and "firsts". I have both side tugging at my heart. I am sad, and anxious about leaving and still wondering if God is going to pull an "Abraham and Isaac" on me, at the last second before I board the plane God says, "just kidding, I was only testing you to see if you would sell everything you have, leave everyone you care about, and walk away from all that is comfortable to you." And on the other side I am excited to see what God is going to do in my life because I am trusting Him and because He called me. I'm excited to walk into a new adventure with new people. I can't wait to meet them all and see who they are. So, this battle of emotions keeps raging in my head and in my heart. My emotions are all over the place but God keeps walking me through everyday that leads up to my trip and I know He will continue to walk me through everyday that I am in South Africa. And at the same time He will be here with everyone I care about walking them through their days. I know I am doing what God has asked me to do and as long as I am doing God's will everything will turn out ok and all will be fine in the end.

I will try my hardest to keep this blog going as often as I can. I'm not sure at this moment if I will be able to upload pictures but if I can I will of course. Please feel free to email me as much as you want. Just know I may not have time to email everyone back individually. As soon as I have an address I will post it as well as try to email it out to all of you. My next post will come to you via South Africa.